Monday, May 21, 2007
Dear everyone,
I appeal to you (just take it like I'm begging you), don't direct any questions at me after the debate is over and is open to the floor. I promise you I'll faint if you ask me a question. As much as I like to engage in *cough* intelligent conversations *cough*, I cannot think on my feet under such circumstances and I'll probably say something stupid. Thank you for understanding. (:
Love,
nat
Anyways.
Rachel and I were talking about the significant people in our lives yesterday. And I'm glad someone else shares my sentiments about certain things. Hallelujah, I've found a friend!
Sometimes I'd rather not see someone, because I'm afraid of what's gonna happen to my mind and heart. I'm afraid I'd say something embarrassingly stupid (always happens). Most importantly, I'm afraid something I've tried so long to fight will come back in that instant.
Even though it doesn't help much to feel afraid most of the time, even though it's idiotically cowardly of me, even though I hate myself for it, I do realise it's okay to feel that way.
And I do realise there are others who're in the same boat as me.
Unfortunately, that boat isn't going anywhere near my desired destination.
i grabbed your attention;
