the head turner

Saturday, January 23, 2010

I'm learning something new each day!

I'm actually earning my own money and now (!!!) I feel the pinch when I'm about to spend money. My heart breaks a little now that there's 1 beep instead of 2 when I take the bus.

Working with children is an extremely rewarding and humbling experience, and I am so glad I took this up. Life hasn't removed the innocence from them, and that makes all the difference. It's like their little hearts are filled with nothing but joy, love and laughter. They are so beautiful when they smile. I think I may have fallen for these children. Hard.

The minute they cry, and hold out their arms, there's someone there holding onto them, rubbing their back, and soothing them. The things that hurt them are nothing to us. They don't have to worry about being all alone because someone is ever ready to wipe away the tears or kiss the pain away. I wish it were that way for us too.

Today we made paper planes for the children - because "A is for aeroplane" - and Ms Sum said, as we watched on, "You want to know the secret to being happy? Learn from these kids. Just a piece of paper is enough to make them squeal and laugh with delight. Find joy in the small things." It isn't easy, but I shall make it a point this year to do just that, and to count my blessings.

Making a decision isn't that difficult, it's living with that decision; dealing with the regret, if any, that makes it so tough.

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Friday, January 01, 2010

I heard this song on the bus to caroling and fell in love with it. Vieny has awesome songs. (: Avalon is just awesome.

I could live life alone
And never feel the longings of my heart
The healing warmth of someone's arms
And I could live without dreams
And never know the thrill of what could be
With every star so far and out of reach
I could live without many things
And I could carry on

But I couldn't face my life tomorrow
Without your hope in my heart, I know
I can't live a day without You
Lord there's no night and there's no morning
Without your loving arms to hold me
You're the heartbeat of all I do
I can't live a day without You

There are days where I actually miss going to school, miss choir practices, and I find myself missing the people that I'm so used to seeing around me everyday. Thank you for contributing to the entire tj experience. I'm suddenly thinking of Mr Chan! Haha, I kinda miss him and his antics. And Ms Tham; my pillar of strength in many ways. People forget people, but they won't forget how you made them feel.

For the past 12 years, with each new year came certainty; but this year I found only a huge and fat question mark along with reluctance to start the new year, because 2010 holds much too much uncertainty.

Of course sparklers, party poppers and laughter of the moment chased all the doubt away. Undisguised pleasure frozen forever in time; thank you for capturing those moments on your fancy schmancy DSLRs.

And for the people that matter, know that I carry you in my heart always. I marvel at our friendship all the time. Thank you for being by my side; encouraging me to take that leap of faith; and being poised and ready to catch me should I ever fall. I hope I can do the same for you too.

"Distance never separates two hearts that really care, for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there. But whenever I start feeling sad, because I miss you, I remind myself how lucky I am to have somemeone so special to miss." Haha I really love this.

This year I'm not going to ask for a heart that feels nothing. "How is it that some people sit in the sun looking like sour apples, while others whistle in the rain?"

I'm going to learn how to whistle in the rain. (:

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Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Am very happy over an email. (:

Two people on my speed dial aren't in town, who am I going to call?

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Tuesday, December 08, 2009

Feel like blasting Get Hot and dancing crazily to it.
Or drowning in some electric guitar sounds.

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Wednesday, December 02, 2009

But You Didn't

Remember the time
You lent me your car, and I dented it?
I thought you'd kill me.
But you didn't.

Remember the time
I forgot to tell you the dance was formal and you came in jeans?
I thought you'd hate me.
But you didn't.

Remember the times
I'd flirt with guys just to make you jealous, and you were?
I thought you'd drop me.
But you didn't.

There were plenty of things you did
To put up with me, to make me happy, to love me
And there were so many things
I wanted to tell you when you came back from Vietnam.
But you didn't.

Resisting the urge to probe deeper and further is my saving grace.

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Monday, November 30, 2009

Focus on your giants, you stumble.
Focus on God, your giants tumble.

Life's been different these days. Not better, but just different. Time flies, what's new. Had a sudden memory, one year ago today we were going to fly off to Hungary! The itinery is still pinned up on my board.

Had a great time with the clique at the sleepover! We could make a docu-drama, 5 girls and 2 beds. HAHA. And I'm sorry oli I didn't say bye to you because I was intoxicated with sleep, even though I vaguely remember you patting my leg.

It was such a pity we got so little pool time. The guard was very funny. He kept coming over to glare at us with his arms on his hips because we were making too much noise. Reminiscent of primary school.

So we pretended to be SUNTANNING at 9.30pm to give the residents of Ocean Park some peace and quiet. Which lasted for about 10 seconds before we started making noise with our hilarious horse war.

Love you girls! I can't say enough times that I'm so glad we're still so close despite going to different JCs! Although we are further divided into two groups - the "VJ people" and the "chapalang JC people"(the RJ-HCI-TJ 'alliance' omg we are so retarded). Hee!

:D

I don't want alot for Christmas,
There is just one thing I need.
I don't care about the presents,
Underneath the Christmas tree.
I just want you for my own,
More than you could ever know.
Make my wish come true,
All I want for Christmas is you.

Yes! It's that time of the year again!
Yay.

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Sunday, November 01, 2009

Haha. (:
Shil's handwriting hasn't changed at all.

ANYWAY. In the midst of studying today; thanks to the noisy O-level kids mugging for SS, we began to talk about our life in tk and how much we slept our lessons away.

We laughed at old stories and old gossip. It seems so long ago!

Okay back to cystic fibrosis and SCID and reverse transcriptase and what not!

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