Friday, August 21, 2009
JC has changed me. I've become so cynical and there's a certain coldness in me that I can't recognize as myself.
This week has been extremely exhausting; disappointing, and somewhat empty. The more I hope for something; the greater the disappointment. Some things just don't change. I was once asked, woud I rather live in my own little world and be ignorant of the things happening around me? Yeah, I think I would. Then I would just be happy everyday, even if I'm just deceiving myself.
It's just a passing thought; but it kept floating in and out of my head; why do people have to lie! I get very bothered when I find out that people lie. To me. I should learn how to get over it, simply because the world lies. I shouldn't be too quick to reveal the truth all the time too. I should start learning to protect myself!
At least the little pockets of H1 econs breaks manage to make me happy. Of coffee stained notes; coffee stained bags and wallets, of crazy plans to be anonymous people, of laughter, of korean songs and of intellectual conversations, I love our breaks.
"It's mind over matter. I don't mind, and you don't matter."
Haha.
i grabbed your attention;
