Friday, May 11, 2007
I’ve wanted to cry for the whole week. Every little thing seems to seize me and render me helpless, leaving me with crying as the only option.
Unfortunately, I can’t. Guess I’ve reached a point where it hurts so much that numbness sets in and takes the place of the supposed “pain”.
I shouldn’t have held back today. The tears were already threatening to fall, especially since Vicki was looking at me like that. But I remembered what I promised myself last night, and I had to remind myself that I was sitting in the front row, and sobbing with my head on the table wasn’t such a good idea.
Lunch was a really quiet affair. Mei was just picking at her lunch silently. Ruoyu ate and rushed off. Jialing remained quiet since no one attempted to make conversation.
According to Jialing, I didn’t make as much noise as I usually do, which I suppose is a good thing.
Did I ever mention that sleeping rocks? I come home after school, get my work done, hop into bed and wake up at 9 to shower, and when my hair dries, I hop into bed and sleep again till the next morning. Doesn’t give me time to think at all.
Isn’t that just fantastic?
I sound so emo. I shall just go to sleep. Sleep isn’t the solution to everything, but it’s the best I can do for now.
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