Saturday, October 14, 2006
For one shining instant, I imagined you as the
mama I never had.
My heart swelled with love as you wove your fingers through my hair, and ever so gently rubbed my back.
And when I raised my tear filled eyes to meet yours, I was stunned to see tears swimming in yours. And when you reached out and pushed back the fringe that was sticking to my face, it made me cry more, all because I felt so loved.
I heard every single loving word you whispered, and I wanted to grab you and hold onto you. I needed the love from my own
mama. I wanted it so badly. I was just too proud to admit it.
I need the physical assurance that I'm loved. Oh, I know I'm loved. But I've never been touched, or hugged, or kissed, or patted on the back, or whatsoever.
It's a void waiting to be filled.
I think Jane was my God sent angel. Everything around us melted away, and all I heard were the loving words that healed.
Thank you, Jane. =)
I think I bared a little too much of me. Heh.
I'm suffering from the I miss Josh syndrome. I didn't get to carry him today. He's like the luckiest guy on earth. Female species are forever surrounding him, cooing and giggling and trying so very hard to make baby gestures and sounds.
Aye aye, ain't he lucky?
Maybe I can try to be Rob-B-Hood and kidnap him.
Everyone say,
SHEEESH NAT, SHEEESH!
i grabbed your attention;
