Saturday, September 02, 2006
I have never, ever, lost my temper in church.
Absolutely no one knows my limits, simply because I've always maintained my cool.
The kids bear a certain amount of fear towards chel, because they've witnessed her get violent with her sister, quarrel with others, throw temper tantrums and yada yada.
Hence, because I'm always the nice one, people believe that I can be easily manipulated and games can be played with me.
I already said I wasn't going for social, and my decision's final.
Just by hiding my stuff while I went to throw away the paper plates doesn't mean I would succumb and stay for social. Please, I'm not such a wimp.
I felt like a bloody fool when I couldn't find my stuff. I seriously considered delivering a tight slap across vieny's face. I didn't act like that when I was her age! I was wanting so badly to go home, and there they were, taunting and refusing to return me my stuff.
I am utterly shocked at the childish behaviour of some people. I don't want to go for social, and that's that! You know there's no point convincing me, so you decide to rope in the kids and resort to childish methods in a bid to force me to stay. Bloody hell, are you aware that you're turning 18 this year? Or do you need someone to remind you of that?
I did raise my voice a little at vincenz, and I didn't feel bad for doing it. And please, I'm not being sensitive here. I'm just sick and tired of it all. All that pushing around, forcing...
I don't lose my temper, but that doesn't equate me being receptive of everything you people want me to do. I'm not here to please people. And if you want to play games, you jolly well make sure you know who you are playing with.
Cos I ain't very nice when I'm upset.
There are times when I feel that people don't really know me. Like, I'm either the crappy one, the funny one, yada yada. I feel exceptionally hurt today.
Somehow, I feel that people don't really appreciate me.
i grabbed your attention;
