Monday, September 04, 2006
Graduation song got to me, and it was a blur of tears as I sat on my bed reading all the farewell letters.
I guess I haven't really let go.
I've still been clinging onto the hope that things won't ever change.
Now, 9 months on, I know things have changed.
I felt like my heart was ripped out of my chest. It isn't easy saying goodbye to all three of your closest friends at one go.
Sure, I have other friends, no doubt, but something just doesn't click.
I knew positively that soon we'd all move on, but it seems wrong to brush away thoughts of the person. But then again, it hurts when I think of them.
The stored away memories came pouring out last night, and it made me cry harder.
The time we tried to learn rollerblading together, the singing, the time we all dared each other to eat the chilli padi and wound up crying cos it stung our tongues, ruth being scared of anything that flies(especially the harmless dragonfly), sophia's lizard incident, the frequent visits to pris'
house to watch friends and eat maggi with tiny fishballs, the fighting over 8days, pris' doodling turned makeshift bookmarks, and MONTY! he's such a happy dog when we visit soph. =) And so much more...
Hell, their phone numbers are still etched in my memory.
I still don't know what has happened to us. I know we aren't that close as before and so what happens? We just text message each other when we think of the person and say 'I miss you!', is that it? It all seems like empty words.
I feel so lousy. Sometimes I wish I could be void of all human emotion.
Then it wouldn't hurt so much.
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