Sunday, June 04, 2006
She's getting a little too pushy. So much so that I dread meeting her. I am at fault, I never had the guts to tell her in the face that I hated what she's doing to me. I do not want to go. So there.And there's something wrong with mom. Or maybe it's me. Ever since seeing mom at the arrival hall, I've been extra irritable. I have a curt reply at the tip of my tongue the moment she starts her nagging. Gosh, and I hate myself for it. It's like I'm ready to pounce on anyone who ruffles my feathers.
Sentosa was the answer for a quick relief from all this mess up in my cranky mind. Cycled with mei, and shil bladed. It's been so long since I had that wind-in-my-hair-i-feel-on-top-of-the-world feeling. When the balloons were released into the air, I just stood there in awe.
I seriously miss Xi'an. I still remember how quiet the bus was when we were driven out of the school for the last time. I waved and waved at the teachers until they were completely out of sight.
The bus was so quiet it was scary. xy started crying. Then it was ceri's turn. I was asking them not to cry, then POOF, the next thing I knew, I myself was crying. Then later, Penny started. Then Alicia. It was spooky. The full 40 minutes of the ride, we were achingly quiet. It's a never before scenario. Since when do tk girls shut up for so long? Hell, since when do GIRLS themselves shut up for so long? AYE.
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I have something to make clear. Ivy's brother is sweet BECAUSE he hugged her at the airport, BECAUSE he patted her on the head, BECAUSE he sent her all those heartwarming brotherly msges that reminded her to take care and sleep early and call home and eat her medicine. SEE. I have reason okay!
Day#2
Was wide awake before everyone else, cos I didn't sleep well. WHY?! Cos I had my period and I was afraid of staining their whiter than snow sheets. So I remained in that same rigid position all night long. Plus, my back was aching. The damned panadol didn't help. I was ready to scream.
After everyone woke up, we went to wash up. GOODNESS, the water was ICY. So icy that it bites your skin.
Bus sent us to school. Were arranged us according to height la. WL EH. MEI, I AM SHORTER THAN YOU MEH?! So I said hi to my desk partner. And I couldn't quite catch his jay chou like response. It was damn awkward la. With everyone staring and clapping. So lessons began and I thought I was saved.
Oh, I was so very wrong.
Physics was terrible. I had no idea what the teacher was talking about and everytime my eyelids threatened to close, the teacher would ask a question and the students would enthusiastically answer and I would be awake again by all their shouting. I guess we really looked lost, cos the teacher kept asking if we understood chinese.
After school we had some cultural singing lesson. I nodded off, then I immediately felt bad when the teacher asked me whether she was boring. She saw me sleeping la. So I had to explain that I didn't sleep well. Yeah yeah, excuses excuses.
Dinner, shower, laughing over at ivy's room, lights off.
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I hate cats.
Maybe some sleep with put out all that irritated-ness within me.
i grabbed your attention;
