Wednesday, March 01, 2006
I wonder why I'm feeling this way.
Everything just came rushing back to me. Everything that I've fought so hard to shut out, everything that I've fought so hard to forget, everything that I've fought so hard to let go...
I guess, maybe I've never really let go. Maybe I've never really forgotten it. But this time, the pain I feel is so much more than before. I hate this feeling. I feel like something's eating my heart, slowly but surely.
It's such an irony. How happy memories lead to nostalgia and sadness. I've begun to think, I'll be leaving TK next year. I'd be so lost. I wish time can just stop tick-tocking. Then I won't ever have to cry at farewells, then I won't ever have to think of the past.
I feel so hurt. By what? I don't know. I feel so useless. Because I don't tell people I cherish how much I love them. I feel so angry. Because life's full of goodbyes.
And I hate goodbyes.
I'm fighting so hard to push it all away.
Yes. Again.
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